Thursday, December 3, 2009

Of present and presence


(You will never regret the present, but you live to its fullest.)

I have to say, I was a little stumped by this one. 
My initial thought was that you can't regret the present, but that's completely untrue. Somedays I wake up wondering why I am where I am, and, knowing the answer, I regret it and hate many of the reasons for why I am studying what I study, going to school where I do, and other life decisions.
BUT then I realized, it doesn't matter how I got here, it matters how I am now, this second. It matters that I'm happy and enjoying life and trying new things and breaking out of whatever the hell it is that got me here to begin with because none of that matters anymore.
What matters is today, Thursday. Right now, 6:27 pm. Not yesterday, not tomorrow. Right now.
It's got me thinking how so many of us don't live like this, that our entire present is spent living in the future or the past, either discussing past events that will change our future, or planning for a future that could be drastically different than what we want or plan for. 

This fortune has also got me thinking. Like a horoscope, is the fortune telling me my future and what will happen? Or should I be in more control of my life and make my life bend to the fortune as some sort of twisted advice? Maybe that's all these really are: small words of warning that can be thrown away with the cookie wrapper or saved and discussed at length in a strange experiment.
Either way, fortune cookie with breakfast? Totally a good idea.

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